Da jia hao. hmm just bathed and came back from a 2.4km run! it was okay, tiring since my stamina's lacking now. a nice run after slacking for quite long.. ohwell no training this week! so i'm freeee :D decided to go for the syf concert hope pple still got tix.
Sigh got back chem quiz econs quiz bio test today. i felt very very demoralized :'( first it was chem, which i really studied for.. and think i'm lowest? 3/18 isn't very good yeah sigh. i really studied for it.. but sometimes effort ain't proportional to the results man. Econs quiz was good, kinda what i expect, econs is like the only thing i feel that i'll use in future, and something i wanna learn more about.
As for bio, it was really bad.. one of the lowest in class again sigh it's so demoralizing. I did study, but i just can't remember all that phosphoglyceric acid or dunno what 3 glycerate or whatever?!?! i was staring at my bio script and thinking, why am i even doing this.
And so i think, what if i chose humanities instead. Afterall i did really well for history last year, and i thought it was rather interesting.. i don't even know myself, i don't know whether i'm a humans or sciences person. Or can i be in between? i really admire people who know, people who pursue their dreams in the direction that they know they will excel in and know they will enjoy and love doing :( i don't have that kind of drive right now. I wanna try taking H3 econs, but with my sucky U grade for bio, how can i..
So now i really don't understand why i'm doing bio at all. Some people might really think it's applicable, learning about human body, photosynthesis and stuff but not really to me. we all have different interests right.. sigh :( but what can i do, i can't get U for bio overall because if i do i'm damn screwed and my entire subject combi will crumble. and if i do so badly i'll never make the criteria for h3 econs ._. and even though i have almost zero interest in some of the things i'm studying now, i'll just have to push through and stuff everything into my head? because 9/10 of Hwachong students score A for bio and somehow, even though this sounds so superficial, it just looks good on your report card ._.

I realise i've been putting quite some of my focus on academics in hwachong. it's the culture, the class.. stressful sometimes, but good in a way.
effort =/= results, just like words =/= actions

I hope there comes a day when i find something in life that i know i want to pursue; and i will go out with all my heart to fulfill those dreams, and someone who makes me realise that life is worth living and life is beautiful :)

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some people move our souls to dance. They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom. Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon. They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never ever the same. -Flavia Weedn

Cause with you i'd withstand, all of hell and hold your hand.
I'd give it all, i'd give for us, give anything but i won't give up.
Cause you know, you know, you know?
I love you, i loved you all along, and i miss you, been far away for far too long.
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go.
Stop breathing, if i don't see you anymore.
So far away been far away for far too long-
But you know, you know, you know?
I wanted, i wanted you to stay,
Cause i needed, i need to hear you say:
I love you, i loved you all along, and i forgive you, for being away for far too long.
So keep breathing, cause i'm not leaving you anymore.
Believe it, hold on to me and never let me go.

:)
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