Its been a really tiring and sick week, i guess that sums up this week ._. came home early everyday after school to sleep. took a nice long stroll today near my home :)
Was thinking of what i'm gonna do with my life. and really, i dont know. Im like standing on this blur line nowhere and i dont know what im gonna do in future. im thinking of taking h3 for econs.. but im unsure if thats what i really wanna do? im just know im not a science person. i really admire people who know what they want :( i guess i can only take things in my stride now?
yeah its such a long friday today. i buay tahan. 4.5 hours of lessons/lectures straight drive me nuts and put me in this pmsy mood. but well..
so i took a nice walk today, took like more than half an hour just to walk home. gotta catch up with myself. swang and swang on the swing..

Life's like a swing isn't it, sometimes we're at the top, sometimes we're down there.
When we're high up, we feel this sense of.. exhilaration but also fear. Excited that we actually managed to swing so high up, but scared that we'll fall even harder.
When we're down, we can just feel the gravity pulling us down.. like how emotions and setbacks can bring us there.
Yet it's a process that never fails to repeat itself till we stop swinging. We go up, down, up and down. Sometimes we get tired. Sometimes we just feel happy that we're swinging.
It takes time to swing till you're high up; it's a process. Sometimes we just enjoy the process of swinging slowly, slowly till we realise we're travelling so fast. Sometimes we just can't swing by ourselves, and we need someone, something to push us along.
Eventually, we stop. We can stop slowly, or abruptly.
But life's like a swing, let's swing happily. Enjoy the process, feel the excitement and joy when you're up there, feel how close you are to the sand when you're down, and treasure every moment you have on the swing. Because you always wanna swing when you see someone else doing it. :) So just swingggggggggggggggggg it.

i practise self-talk.

was sitting with carol during bio today, and when she heard how my class guys talked to me, she commented "your class guys very bad to you, niao you until like that". and i replied, "they're always like that. im used to it". so when i told our class guys, they naturally suaned me even more. "then get out of our class la!" oh i've developed a very strong immune system against them such that i'm not really hurt when they said that hahah what asses.
how i miss nanyang life ._.
actually, i miss Nanyang Squash the most. i really miss all the friends i've made there, the friends i know will probably be my friends for life. people who know me so well, people who i really came to know in the 4years there. people who shared my tears, laughter, exhaustion, thousands of runs in the court, millions of swings, hundreds of drills, passion, love, and spirit for the one and only team :) and Coach, sigh he's really the best and irreplaceable! i felt some tears at the back of my eyes just now :( we must meet up soon!!! REMINISCE REMINISCE REMINISCE. we could go back to our yakun.

Oh speaking of some irritating guys, ytd when chang and i were getting out of sch 2 guys really pissed us off. They were walking in front of us, and the TWO of them walked to the door. both of them stood there and waited for the two of us behind them to press the button to get out for them. so we were like "huh why didn't they press it themselves". never mind, so we were nice and bothered to walk faster and use up more of our adenosine triphosphate (quote chang) to press the button for them. and without even saying a word of thanks, they pulled open the door, walked past, and didn't even bother to hold the door we opened for them and zoomed off. thus, we had to use up even MORE of our adenosine triphosphate to run to the door and hold it before it closed. ooooooooooooooh how gentlemen. we were both :@

Saturday tmr, i gotta get myself awake and motivated before a very hectic next week starts.
Mon gpp and chem spa, tues bio spa, wed tournie (i wna play alrdy), thurs econs quiz cum bio extra lessons, fri gp and trng, sat trng... good luck to me.
and, ywtoiltottitthot. i doubt many of you get this other than my very smartirritating classmates. so anw, ywtoiltottitthot :)

and when the stars fall i will lie awake you're my shooting star.

:)
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