Monday, February 25, 2008
xian went "VROOM" and tripped and FLEW in the air before tumbling down and scraping her knee. blood gushed out and xian lay on the field stunned and laughing at herself. xian walked around school later zi-highing thinking that it was damn funny to have a swollen knee and pus oozing out. xian gallops everywhere looking like a baika but happy happy as xian's friends think she's retarded. ouch how to train, :(
and well.
im in a confused tearing state,
im feeling very mixed and confused and sucky, :(
found out ystd that my granduncle passed away on my birthday.. i dont know what to do.
i dont know.. i cannot take losing anyone around me. i cantttttttt. not when i never ever thought of them leaving.. not when i just saw him a few weeks ago all happy during chinese new year. :'(
i feel lost and helpless, like theres too much i cant control.
and thinking about ever losing any of my grandparents is making me )(*#(*$#$ shit xian.
how could i be having the time of my life when other stuff were happening around me. this is making me so confused. what am i supposed to do i feel so troubled. im permanently happy but now i feel guilty for feeling that way because sometimes, it just doesnt make any sense at all.
:'(
:'( drop
its okay xian will be okay by tmr.
just let me cry today.
