Today, made me realise some things
which made me really sad
disappointing -
overestimated
i dont make, i wait
it hit me right in my face
:'(
and it didnt help that some guy came up to me while i was walking home and )#(*)#(*$(#(**(^^%$$*
when all these ends i really need some time to myself

thank goodnesssss i have the 74s - thats one of the few things that keep me going in school. without them id just break down give in and give up. theyve been my pillars of strength since 1year+ ago
people who ALWAYS make me laugh when im around them, its only when im with them that i hardly ever feel sad. they remind me of so much good things, like to be just who we are. that we're still young and should just live happily. that we can be childish anytime. that no matter how others judge me, they wont. that i dont need to pretend because they know me better than i know myself sometimes. and they ALWAYS tolerate my stupid crap when im just being an idiot.
i love chang for you know, EVERYTHING, shiyu and shuhui for SO SO MUCH, sam for ALL THE GREATNESS HE BROUGHT INTO MY LIFE, hongshen for being one of my STRONGEST PILLARS, tung for always cheering everyone up, yongxiang for being the funniest man ON EARTH, john for his antics and love for ****** ;), leslie for ALWAYS taking all the shit i do to him, yingli and jwong for being GREAT listeners, weichi weiming for bullshit and BANANAS, mingwei for being a kid, nicole for being SWEET, diane and becky for their cuteness, eugenia for her witty comments, xiaojun for being THE MOST HUGGABLE BEAR.

thats why i dont want this year to end even though so much is getting to me because i dont wanna lose them when we go our separate ways

for now xian
i dont think id be able to muster any sai by tmr
i guess you're right
i dont..
not at all :/

Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere

:)
8:52 PM