"Follow your heart. For though it is on the left, it is always right"
Love this quote :) in other news, i think 24 hours are honestly not enough for me.
Indeed, all my commitments are gonna pile right on top of me and im starting to feel the stress already. plus i'll have to balance everything with school work, which i really want to do well in. but then again, i want to have SO MUCH more outside of lessons and studying. i am so greedy.. but somehow i feel i can manage it?? i hope im not overestimating myself.
It is obvious that i have so many commitments, esp in these few weeks for Inter fac games ahhhh!!! Im beginning to wonder why im playing 3 sports for usp lol!!
And since i decided to be nice and tutor zenghao whenever im free, there goes all the time in the world. 6 tuitions a week, THANK YOURSELF XIAN. Mondays got to be 07s74 lunch and band rehearsal day. Tues is a free day but im squeezing 2 tuition in, making it unfree afterall. Wed next week gonna be TERRIBLE :S

Wed 020909:
10-12 usp lect
12-1 duke talk
1-2 econs tut
2-3 blood donation
3-5 usp writing tut
6 onwards IFG match

I wonder if i'll have enough blood to last me for IFG (or so twinnie says) :p
So weds not free.. and so is thurs. fridays supposed to be NEFMQ meeting day but now ive tuition and ive to juggle everything and fit in everythingggggggggg i really hope i can i got to be there!!!!!
plus this is not even the peak period ive yet to go for red x or motoring, not to mention usp stuff

OKAY enough grumbling from me. today was spent meeting director joel for the impt stuff i need to know abt nefmq. dinner later and (surprise!!!) i think i ate too much.
Ohwells i pretty much enjoyed the time spent with shanti today because we were talking about LOL :D seriously shanti.................................... its damnnnnn awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee heeeeheeeeheeeeeeeeee :p

That aside, i feel like ive really become more mature. though im still the lame piece of crap everyone hears, i guess im preserving this light (cute?? lol) side of mine. im glad for uni life, i have learnt more than i ever did in such a short span of time. i cant quantify what i learnt, i dont really know how to describe it. but i realised that there are so many more facets to life, so many things undiscovered, so much left unexplored and the future is really what we make of it. how you dont have to be a doctor, lawyer or famous person in order to be successful. success is what you define it to be. and it is pretty much also dependent, at least for me, on how happy and fulfilled you are. how studying arts can be very slack, but is what you make out of it. i see some Profs who really have the passion and whom i truly respect for their intelligence and strong reasoning abilities. these are the people who are truly knowledgeable, who have the heart to care for others, who might not be doctors or lawyers, but are exceptional in their own ways. just look at philosophers!!! philosophers are really people we ought to respect, their ability to reason and think critically is.. SO CRITICAL, for lack of a better description lol! they are true geniuses.

i feel that the time im investing into people, into other contributions and in acquiring knowledge with such a personal touch is worth more than the time spent memorizing enzyme names, for example. it is when you have that heart that makes everything worth doing, every morning worth waking up for and every second of sleep sacrificed justifiable.
i realised how my circle of friends in the past (as much as i really love them) can be constricted and narrow-minded since we probably all grew up in an extremely sheltered "elitist" environment. how uni opened up my eyes to new horizons, seeing new things and meeting new people, realising that we should really not adopt the elitist attitude we did back in jc. humility is so important!! also, everyone has something to share, and something each and everyone of us can learn from. that every soul deserves respect.
And how i will put so much effort into making everything right, esp for nefmq, for econs society, for this bunch of ppl cos i know theyre gonna be worth it. i know i'll have fun while working. and ive understood one thing more than ever:

Every sixty seconds you spend being sad is one minute of joy you can never get back. trust me, i will never want to get anything back because none of the seconds i lived are sad moments which i would want to convert into better ones.
some things are not meant to be, but its perfectly alright, because there is so much more that is meant to be. and then you'll see how everything falls into place, just like it did for me. i cant thank you enough.

im feeling what i felt 2 years back(: and i know it, its just a matter of whether or not i let myself jump in haha. if there was anything i could ask for, it would be more time spent with my family.

You're beautiful, every little piece love
And don't you know, you're really gonna be someone
Ask anyone
(:

:)
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