I think i'm really greedy. I'm afraid that i'll overestimate myself. You know, different people can give you all sorts of advice but at the end of the day you really have to come up with an answer yourself. It's just like how there are so many viewpoints in environmental ethics, biocentrism, ecocentrism, anthropocentrism, ecofeminism.. they offer a wide range of views and arguments. I'd thought that through Environment Ethics, i would get the answers i want about how to view and treat the environment. But boyyy i was wrong, because at the end of the day, after reviewing what all the great philosophers have said, you have to come up with your own choice, your own philosophy.
This applies to me right now. I really don't know if i'll be able to cope with the new post. I really hope i can. At the same time, i don't want to sacrifice anything for the new responsibility, really. But i wonder if i'm being overly optimistic. I want to get an awesome CAP, i want to play my squash, i want to play my guitar keyboard and sing with the band (even though we really PhA!L these few weeks), i want to have my happening social life as usual, i want to spend time with my family, i even want time for myself. I want way too much.

In other news, we had our meeting today to discuss the urgent change of venue. Before that i was chilling at the deck with zen and jem and i realised how glad i am to have them, friends of usp and econs majors, taking the same module this sem. I think i'll miss having them in class next sem when we take different mods. And i met cousin in school today, for the first time hehe :)

Alright.. i think i eventually have to make a choice. For now, i'm 80% decided to take up the post unless someone can convince me that i'll be really unhappy after taking it up. It's gonna be such a challenge for me.. mentally, physically. For the next one year you're probably gonna see me stressing up at some times. I can alr feel it for our event next year and it's like.. 9 months away. Omg thanks joel.

Buttt i'll only have myself to blame when i'm all stressed and irritated and retarded and pissed and sad and angry!! :( then again, i really want to push myself.. that's what University life is all about hunks and babes!

(ZZZ listening to webcast and SERIOUSLY PROF NI HEN LUO SUO!!!!!!)

AWESOME i loveee the backstreet boys and shania twain and this song = best combination, plus i loveee the song and lyrics!! --> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fdlsj8D1mH4 You're the reason I believe in love

:)
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