had a swimming/tanning session with 0.5 on wed, it was awesome :) awesome room you have there.. messier than mine haha!
i was really really happy to stay at home ystd, with 12 hrs of mahjong with my grandaunt and mum. it's times like these where you feel like home is everything -- it's just so safe, comforting, warm and all i need as a shelter and more. i think i'll come to appreciate my family and home more when i move in to rh next sem.

speaking of rh, we went for our squash training today. and somehow it just felt really nice to have bearx6 hongshen and mingwei there laughing at me/ random jokes. it just feels good to have a bunch of familiar faces, ppl you can always fall back on, ppl who have shared so much with you and who can make you laugh at the same thing all over again. :)
which makes me realise how old friends are really sometimes.. truly the best. how they are the ones who know you best, who've been through so much with you and know who you are deep within. some friendships don't fade even as time passes by, and these are the true a-few-in-a-lifetime kind. im glad ive found a handful :) but some things change and once they do, you can never go back.

i've been thinking abt how i've met so many new ppl in uni. so many. and i know i'll just get to meet hundreds more in the next few sems, with hall, usc, ens and maybe even tutorials. sometimes its tiring, to have to put in the effort to get to know new ppl, and what they say is true -- that it can be really hard to find true friends as you progress in life. most of the time i think to myself, what's the point in me making so many new friends when they may not be my close friends? but then i think again.. if you never start off, you will never know who will end up as your true friend. if i never met the people i know today last time, if i didn't walk up and talk to them, if i didn't get to know them better and spend time with them, they would never be who they are to me today. and so.. opening up, meeting new people and making new friends can be an experience.

friends prob know that ive gotten myself into so much. next sem is prob gonna be the craziest time i ever had in my life. i'll prob be overloading = taking 6 modules, which is really quite rare considering that im taking 3 usp modules and 3 econs core modules. i'll be staying in hall -- which means training for and playing for ihg soccer and squash + other social activities. next year, usc sports directors have to do quite abit of stuff.. our frisbee league, movie screenings, floorball sessions, and ifg. as for ens, it'll be even more with nefmq coming in july and i really feel the responsibility being in charge of what's gonna happen. aside from all these 'formal' stuff, there are really quite alot of social activities. i realise how my holidays are always packed with so much stuff, with less time for myself and my family. how i just try to keep in touch with everyone and all.. it really makes me wonder at the end of the day who matter. as for now, i believe that there are really alot of ppl who have touched my life, who i still want to keep in contact with, and so i will keep trying and.. time will tell the stories it is meant to tell.

and so i know i have alot of these things that many friends will think are useless, just pure meaningless social activities, and that i should just concentrate on getting my first class honours. but that is just wrong. all these things have opened me up to so much more possibilities, let me see so many more people and things in life. they have strengthened me, made me more open and receptive to new ideas and people. they have made me realise better who i am and what i want to do. the people around me, the different people i get to meet everyday, teach me new things in ways that others may not have. and honestly, they are a part of me. i admit that at times i really hate going for all these things because they get quite tiring and obligative?? but i do believe that in the long run, they will only make me more able and ..awesome. :)

after squash training and the sports directors meeting el kimleng and i headed to my place. we got ben&jerrys dublin mudslide and swept the entire tub in a few mins lol! :) then went over for our alumni bbq. sometimes i really feel too young, too immature, and out. esp when im the only year1 amidst all the year 2-4s. once again this is a test of my adaptive skills.

also, when i have so much stuff going on in my life, that's when i'll realise who are the ones who will stay; and who will still make an impact on me even as im rushing through my daily stuff. in uni, or at least in my fac, circumstances dont favour for you to have a close group of friends who will go for all your classes/breaks/lectures with you. but because the situation doesnt favour that, you will soon realise that things that ppl do which are not obligatory shows much abt what you mean to that person. :) im in quite a.. christmas card writing mood. i feel like i've quite alot to say to people and friends, just a word of thanks and concern, and to tell all of u guys that i'll always be here no matter what ok!

.. and this is a long post but i forgot abit of what i wanted to say. today we headed for supper after the bbq. memories and the familiar but changed path. im really glad to be meeting sam samuel enloong xiayan and gang tmr, i really love sam he's awesome. :)

lilong: hey fatass ur badly missed, hope ur having fun, wear more clothes when its getting cold though i dont think u'll need them since ur decked with fats. nevertheless, take care of urself and reply my email/fb/skype :D

:)
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