life has been quite a ride. went back to hwachong with pacman ytd.. how nostalgia filled us up!
sitting at the class bench and being quiet, remembering all the beautiful memories. recalling what we did at that same place 2 years ago. how everything started, ended, how time flew passed and before we knew it we had to say our goodbyes. sitting down there and having flashbacks, feeling that same sweet feeling i did.. it really brings back some emotions.
but what's left are but memories, beautiful ones at that. things have changed.. new people are in school, people we have never seen before, even the central plaza got renovated.. and i can't even recognize it anymore. i can't imagine that was the place we stood at every morning at 7.20am for 2 years singing the national anthem and school song. the place we laughed at stupid things and people.

i was thinking of the question Prof Nuyen asked us about changing pixel by pixel the Mona Lisa. it's like how every single thing at hwachong may change over the years and will never be the same again. then again, some things don't change. like how the fish tank uncle still gives me a free cup of ice lemon tea every time i go back to visit. :)

but in life.. things change, many can never be the same again. yet i'm not talking about this in an emo way, it's more of a.. move on and still be happy kind of thing.

i remember sam saying that school sucks back in j2. how i told him that at every point in life we might look back and say, "if only we were back in xxx". but then if at every point in life we move on and we say that of the past, we'd only be living in the past and never think of how lucky we are in the present. and maybe that's why i loved every part of my life for being a part of my life.. each part has its role to play in shaping me into who i am. we must constantly remind ourselves that we are truly blessed being where we are at any point in time. so we won't look back and say "grr i should've xxx". i must say uni life has really opened me up quite abit, seeing things and people i never did. i know there's just much more ahead.

I'm pretty sure i learnt quite alot in jc as well, and how i treasured and still treasure those days so deeply. but then again i'm happy where i am, even when sometimes, the going gets tough.. so wherever you are, whoever you may be, i hope you're living the life you want to and i hope you're happy.

live laugh love life :)

aside from that, i must say academic rigour is kinda driving my ego down. every time i step out of a lecture/seminar/tutorial, i feel my ego dropping abit. that's especially the case in writing mod haha. and the more i learn, the more i think i haven't learnt! the irony :p

oh and this is really incoherent, but the thing about things changing.. well there are exceptions. and at the very least i know what/who fall under that category for me. :) and another reason why writing mod stresses me out is because it makes me analyse and think so critically about every writing, every detail, every poster and caption. it forces me to think deep within and reflect as well. that's the same for philosophy. it pushes you somewhere.. and most of the time, into somewhere you don't dare to go. it makes you question the fundamentals and shakes your belief. it makes you realise that there are many things in life which are not finite or definite. like what Prof Yew said, there are really no right answers. in what you write, what matters is the solid argument you construct around it. and that's something important i have come to learn in these few months. there are alot of things we think have fixed answers, but that's really hardly the case. in fact, it can be quite difficult to think of a question with a definite answer. alot of times the perspective matters, and the people who interpret it contribute to the perception. this just reminds me of my usp entrance essay, how time flies..

“Our eyes see what they want to see; our ears hear what it’s nice to hear; and the worst type of deaf person is the one who only wants to hear one thing.” —Luc de Brabandere, The Forgotten Half of Change

NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU~

:)
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