i really can't help but to think about it unknowingly.. and feel hurt. life is unfair, you get blamed for doing things you never intended to or probably never even did. you get punished for putting in every bit of your effort and doing the best you thought you've ever did. so i really don't know what i've gotten myself into, but at least i know there are people who will stand by me.

and i really shouldn't be spending so much effort thinking about it. everytime i go into my grandparents' room and sit down there and talk to them, even if it's for just one minute, i realise how blessed i am to have them in my life. and i realised i will never trade anything in this world for them, even if it means going through this undeserving crap a hundred times. i know how lucky i am to have the person i love most in my life; and the person who loved me the most in my life, my grandmother, with me today.

so no matter what happens just let things be and things will always turn out fine. never let such stuff make you lose sight of what truly matters. come what may &

HOLD YOUR HEAD HIGH HEAVY HEART!

really a big thankyou to all who listened to my nonsense and ranting. thanks bb, thanks for having a cute family and the very filling teppanyaki :) buffet tmr HAHAHA we're gonna get fat!!

:)
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