So here i am, it's been a long day, got home at 9pm+ and much has happened. Had the presentation for delegates from turkey to nus in the evening, was underprepared.. got a shock when i entered the room to see my name, title and society printed on a piece of paper on the conference room table, omg it was.. haha

Leaders have such great responsibility. the name/title always sounds good, like hey i'm the President, but behind all that lies so much hard work, effort both physical and mental, and for me - courage, breaking free from who i am to be a representative. it's not always easy, there are times i stumble and all.. times i do a cost benefit analysis haha. i guess i never really realised what it means to be a true leader, because that involves so much responsibility it is quite overwhelming. whatever others do, whatever mistakes others make, you have to answer for it. whenever something goes wrong, you must be accountable. you are the representative, and honestly you have to handle all big occasions, for the one sole reason that you are The leader and you have no choice but to always be the representative who speaks up. i liken it to being an adult, when you have a kid, no matter what mistakes the kid makes, others will blame it on the parents.. hahaha

In the end it all boils down to the motivation, passion, belief, strength. something i hope to have in my future career. i was also thinking about the kind of life i want to lead in future, of course things may change along the way, but a thought: i think people often underestimate the joy a simple life can bring. ever heard of the fisherman story?

A man was sitting by the harbour, relaxed, fishing. A fisherman just came back from the sea with quite a few fishes in his net, when the man asked him, "hey what are you doing with those fish?" The fisherman replied, "oh i'm selling them at the market so i can earn some money" and the man replied, "then what are you gonna do with those money?". The fisherman smirked and remarked, "well, i can get a bigger boat with the money and then fish for more fish! then i can sell them for even more money". The man, puzzled, probed, "and what do you do with the money again..?" the fisherman, thinking that it's such a silly question, said matter-of-factly, "with more money, i'll get a ship, bigger nets, hire some men to help me fish and earn more money." The man continued to ask what the money was for and irritated, the fisherman scowled, "when i have all that money i'll be happy and can sit down by the harbour all relaxed and fish!"
So the man said slowly but surely, "that's what i'm doing now, and it's what you can do now."

I just wrote that story myself it's like another version of something similar i've heard before. so ultimately, i hope i remember what i want, stay true to it, and i hope i walk in the direction that will point me to the kind of happiness i want and define for myself.

I also realised i've changed quite alot from the past secondary/jc school days.. but then again, most of me still remains haha but i have lost some parts of it, while gaining some. definitely a more open mind and greater appreciation of my family, which is really great.

For now, i'm pretty happy with the life i'm leading :) and i can't wait for cny!!!!!!!!!! happy birthday daddy

(anyone has any ideas to help me publish an article titled "The Dating and Financial Markets - any Links?" haha i'm serious, it shall get published..) with inspiration from the module Money and Banking :>

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