The past week has been tough. extremely intense emotions - anger, guilt, grief, tears.. The anger has subsided, because if anything, this has taught me that I should always treasure my loved ones. Guilt... I should never have stayed out so late. this might be something that will live with me for life. Grief and tears... I really miss my gong gong.

I will never, ever forget all the love he's given me. i will never forget his and my popo's love. he will always be deep in my heart.

It's been a week since he left us. the consolation, as what my grandma says, is that he went off without having to suffer much pain, and that he went off peacefully in his sleep. he would have been happy that many came to see him. and for that, i am immensely grateful to all my friends and relatives who came. thank you, from the bottom of my heart, it means so much.

Thanks much to those who gave concern, i am generally calm, but times like these at night, i can't help but cry because i really miss him. Popo misses having someone she can argue with; so i suggested she start scolding me.

The past week has taught me to truly forgive and forget some events, to love and to care about my loved ones constantly. this message never rang so loudly in my head. i dont want to live with regrets.

I also hate the fact that i will probably have to go through this pain again someday in future.. pls, dont let me go through it anytime soon.

For now, i have to take care of popo. not just because i promised gong gong i will, but also because she's the person i love most in this world.

Take care everyone, love and let love.

:)
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